when i turned my alarm off this morning and looked at the date on my phone, i literally started telling myself, "don't freak out. don't freak out. don't freak out." maybe i sound crazy, but in all honesty, the fact that it's february again just kinda scares me and overwhelms me. i hadn't thought much about it coming up, so this morning i was surprised by how much it bothered me. and maybe by "bothered" i mean, "physically hurt." i know that sounds incredibly dramatic, but sometimes the pain isn't just an emotion or a feeling; it can be physically felt. i don't really understand it.
i feel like yesterday was february of 2008, when i started this blog because i was freaking out about the one-year anniversary. and let's be honest, february of 2007 really only feels like a few months ago, so i don't really know how to handle the fact that the two-year mark is quickly approaching.
to some, all these numbers and dates probably seem trivial, but they're pretty significant to me. the last two years have been such a journey on so many levels. you can probably expect a few posts about it in the next month.
3 comments:
February also celebrates a day which changed our family's lives dramatically for the better and was one of your father's all-time days to celebrate! Of course you know that date is the 17th, the day God graced us with you!
i welcome the posts about this. i want to read and hear every thought in your head about it. because i care and because i'm not there to see those thoughts sit on your shoulders. i also expect you to call me with thoughts that dont make the blog. glad we have this agreement.
oh and your mom is right...i love february because you were born in it! and of course i'm partial to 17s. all the people who were born on the 17ths of months are better.
Hey Second Cousin... totally understand the feeling. 12 years feels like yesterday still. It will always be a pivotal moment in your life. The before and the after.
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